[Silmeria]

Originally Posted by krnxknight

be ready for a long response to this.

you developed an aversion to penetration because of the past events. any therapist will tell you this. they will continue to tell you that the only way to break your aversion is to expose yourself to it.

this is true.

when a person goes through a psychological trauma such as an accident or assault, there is typically one thing during that event that the victim attaches all the fear from the event to.
in your case, it's penetration.

I was in an accident a few years back. in my case, it was little honda civics. After I got out of the hospital, i could drive any car fine with no adverse effects. However, when presented with the sight of a little red honda, i could barely stand. My brain had wired it so that when i saw a little red honda, i would think that i was about to be hit by a truck again. however, the longer i was around that little red honda without the event of being hit by a truck happening, the easier it was to be near it. now i can drive em fine, just takes some time. exposure to the "cause(little red honda)" without the "effect(crash)" will eventually make it so the cause no longer leads to that effect.

that being said, in your case, exposure to penetration without the assault will eventually make it so you have have sex that way without reacting as such.

i suggest starting with a vibrator because you have total control over it. if you can already use vibrators normally, i suggest doing so with your boyfriend present (assuming that you do want to have sex with him in the future). that way you can have the penetration by vibrator with another human presence there. get used to that and eventually he might be able to start. this does hinge on the fact that he can be patient.

and so ends my comprehensive guide to behavioral psychology as a means of therapy. for a more detailed and professional sounding (but basically the same) guide, you will have to enlist a professional behavioral psychologist.

i do hope it helps.

thats basscially the best anwser but instead of following the vibrator just go straigh with the sexual terapist and psychologist.