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first thanks for all the responces and not laughing of me :P

@ElderKain ..- i have never heard of the "clamp syndrome" you say-- and not even in google -- could you provide more info about it.. its always good to know what the hell is going on with me >_>;


@krnxknight- what you said.. is kinna helpful thanks-- tho i'm embarasing with the way i feel about it.. i guess going little by little with your advice might result-- tho there is still no quaranty that it won't hurt like hell right? ^^;

@darkzero45 - sorry to hear that you went to a smiliar experience.. -
i was around 6-8 when i was raped for the first times.. were a couple of times- thanks god i don't remember all the datails.. but i do remember when it happened when i was older and- yeah didn't like it lol

urm.. well some people i know are gay .. and suffered similar situation.. but others-- are gay withtout going throw all thos situation.. so i can't say that it was its fautl i'm bi-- i think "it helped me to realize that" - well at least thats the way i think-

-- and its funny.. cuz i cut.. and still i'm afraid it will hurt lol